Originally written in 10/2017
Today has been a very trying day for me! Better yet the past couple of weeks. Have you ever felt so helpless; like you couldn’t say or do anything?
So many times we want to handle things on our own or do things our way.But, when you make the choice to live your life better; you pretty much have to follow a different set of rules!
You can’t just punch folk then in their face anymore, you can’t curse anyone out; etc. You basically have to turn the other cheek and “Let Go and Let God”.
Let me be clear that’s not always an easy thing to do! Now, we has believers know that Our Heavenly Father will take care of those that mess with his children; but we want it to be instantly!
God works on His timeframe; not ours!Has anyone ever done you wrong? Have you ever been disrespected? Has anyone ever deprived you of an opportunity?
Have you ever been treated like you were nobody or you didn’t matter? What did you do? How did you react?As a child of the Most High God; we have to stand down but; your flesh wants to react! You want to rock somebody to sleep! (New Jack City)
You want to say something, you want to let it be known that you see the foolishness; you want to be heard! But, many times if not all you have to keep quiet and allow God to handle it on your behalf! Today, as my family gathered to say our final goodbyes to our grandfather; I cried like it was the end of the world!
My heart was crushed and my soul and spirit felt overwhelmed! When you know things and can’t speak them it’s a feeling I can’t quite explain. I wanted the opportunity to share about my grandfather, I wanted to set the record straight, I wanted my voice to be heard; but his wife wanted to be in control.
She didn’t care that his family wanted to share any heartfelt messages. She made it about her and her family. Family has always been important to me and I try to instill that in my children. When you marry you want to marry for the right reasons and the right person!
You want to believe that people can change and learn to be better people but some people just aren’t built that way. Being that God gives us free will that opens up so many possibilities for people to get it wrong but also get it right; but you have to be on board fully to allow the good to flow through!
While I will never get another chance to stand up and speak about my grandfather; I am grateful that God chose him to be my grandfather! I am grateful that God allowed me to go and spend time with him his final days! I am grateful that I was able to pray for him before he departed! I am grateful I was able to tell him I loved him one last time!
That’s something nobody can take away from me! I was so hurt today! I was crushed! My soul was crying out! But I know God got me! He sees and knows all; everything we do, He knows about it! This is why we have to be better than those that do us wrong! We can’t stoop to their level!
We can’t knock them upside their head! We can’t flat nobody tires! We can’t key their car! We can’t pull their hair out or wig off! We got to stay classy! We got to keep it all the way Kingdom!
What would Jesus do? People were looking at me like I was crazy; I was crying so uncontrollably. People don’t know the pain you go through of being deprived and having to keep a tight lip; but God does and He has the final say so!
Nothing you have experienced has went unseen or unheard of; God has got this! A friend told me this some years back, “you can’t choose you’re family”! While she may have a good point. I’ve come to realize the family that God places you in was for a reason and no you can’t choose your bloodline; but when you make the choice to bring others into the equation make sure they are coming to bring joy and not sorrow.
Whatever you’re experiencing in your life right now and it’s causing all kinds of confusion, despair, strife, negativity; etc! Give it to God! Allow Him to take the wheel!!
Written and published by Tamara McCarthy
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